NOT HERE; NOT THERE
THE AN AND HIS ANU
Before the beginning was the AN. And the AN was primordial, before all uniform, indivisible, indiscernible, like a void of only aether, but aether existed not within it. He existed alone, like an infinite sea made both of everything and nothingness at the same time: yea, like a black, invisible flame forth which fire and light had yet come arise forth out of.
And the AN didst live forever before everything as it shall twain forever exist in the future. Is He infinite in every way and beyond the constraints of time, for greater is He than even aether, than the elements, and Tiamat’s tail. In pure perfection He liveth, hidden, and unknowable to all things.
And it came, at a certain point that was beyond the present, that the AN became conscious of Himself and the fire above the black flame arose and was lit. And when the AN thought, the thought was of Himself, and AN became, as it were, self-aware.
And this was called the First Thought and it was good and pure. The ego of God himself was the First Thought, perfect in all ways and great like Him, nearly as large. And the First Thought was named after Him, and she was a female, but called Adam, the first of Man, also. She was named the Great Mother, Great Father, Holy Spirit, Barbelo, known as the ANU in Khemet.
And ANU, who is Barbelo, Holy Father, Holy Mother of all things, fell in love with her Father, who is also her brother and her Divine Subconscious. She looked at Him as though a mother looketh with joy at her child while the child also looketh at his mother with admiration. And they loved each other, and God Himself, the AN, who some call THE ONE AND THE ALL, ALL ENCOMPASSING ONE, THE GREAT ONE, LORD OF LORDS, KING OF KINGS, PUREST OF LOVE, MERCIFUL ONE, THE KINDNESS OF ALL KINDS, INFINITE PEACE, who cannst be possibly described with words; yes, He Himself saw His reflection in her and saw the purest, most beautiful of all things possible.
Then the ANU thought about this Being from whom she came out of and considered speaking with Him, communicating. And she asked who He was, and softly, He said: “I AM THAT I AM”, “I AM THE ALL AND THE ONE OF ETERNITY”. Where I descended from is a mystery; for, I was neither there nor here, but simply was.
And they had a very brief, yet long discussion following this, and the two decided to manifest more and more thoughts between themselves: all arising from the original First Thought. But, to house the thoughts, first had they needed to form a Heaven: a place of Light, holy fire, perfection, and grandeur. So, the AN and ANU made a being to fill the sea of nothingness and chaos, and through their Word, called Anum, the first breath of God, He was called Light, and later called the Christ, Spirit of Ra, Embodiment of the AN.
Here is the greatest of all trinities, the Father AN with His First Man, Holy Spirit ANU, and their Anum, the Divine Light to fill the void of empty chaos.
And considered they what it meant to hath thoughts and a being called “Knowledge” was born; she was an entity herself and a pure paragon, attribute of God.
The place where the woman of Knowledge be located is directly below the Barbelo, ANU, and doth she help to compose the Mind of God.
And Knowledge conversed with the First Thought and God again, and from this didst they unintentionally create another, and she was called “Understanding”, and beautiful was she in all ways.
And all these great Beings, far higher than mere angels and lesser gods, continued to think and talk between one another through the medium of Light which forms the Mindspace of God. No speech or sight of Great AN moved nor moveth, if not through His Christ, Celestial Horus, the Light.
33 were the total of the Beings and Children of Barbelo and God: each, the highest, most pure attribute in men; together didst they form Mind, and the creation above the creation beneath the Firmaments moved at last. Thus was the dawn of the Pleroma–True, Highest Heaven where the Aeons, those high Thought-Beings, rest and the place of immaculate illumination expandeth.
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THE HOUSE OF THE AN
The state of the Highest place, ultimate paradise above all lower heavens and hells. Is it a location beyond time and matter and all material, corporeal things of that sort. Even is it beyond the divine, immaterial planes and Superiors spheres beneath.
There shalt the chosen soul, one who has earned its freedom and liberated itself from the chains of the Demiurge’s universe, fly up to and live eternally with THE ONE AND ALL.
Finite and limited in the Earth and flesh is he, but the infinite limitless resteth peacefully far above all things in the place between spaces. Yea, one life existeth at a time on the Earth, but beautiful lives for the soul in innumerable multitudes are experienced in the court of God’s temple.
And in that place, the liberated one shall become equal with the GOOD GOD OF ALL, and there shall be no differentiation, no unhappiness, no sadness.
That great soul will be lord over all things about himself and surrounding him. The Mind of God within him shall be as complete as outside of him, and that which is within himself will be no different that the Pleroma surrounding him, for which he is immersed in and one with.
There, the deepest desires of himself will be fulfilled in exceeding amount, forever and ever without end. Should he wish to become like a king on a world of his own, so shall that wish be granted at once, and the possibility of sadness, anger, loneliness, despondence, and all negative things for that matter shall be cast out, and one shall know only love, happiness, joy, faith, freedom, and greatness.
All things art determined to return to their source in due time. Yea, the evilest of all souls, even he, in his own season, shall fly up to the Great Place from whence all things came, his original home, and will again be one with THE ONE.
But of what day that will be, only a man can decide. Man is the lord of his own soul, and what a man shall command of his soul and mind to do, the mind shall obey without question. Therefore, rule thine soul in the way that shall bring you everlasting peace and light. Forgo the extra daily piece of bread in the name of gluttony and inherit the PLANE of infinite barley cakes at all times.
Oh, man, so little doth thee look and so weak in nature, powerless doth thou perceive thyself, slow in faculties, weak in strength, but know thou not that all things are in thine hands, in the same way that all things art in the divine midst of the NAMELESS ONE?
Neither is it properly said that God is within or without you. Nay, thou art God in His fleshy form, and all that doth surround thee is but Himself in disguise. Take control of thyself, small men of the Earth, and become ruler of the soul, the Ego, and the consciousness of ANU.
For, when that has been accomplished in a hefty, appropriate amount, your time shall come to leave the Earth and you will die in the flesh, but rise in spirit and soul into the GREAT LAND OF LIGHT!
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THE DAWN
When, before the beginning, the final Aeon of the Pleroma; that is, the Highest, True Heaven of Light, had been willed forth and manifested from the thoughts and Mind of the AN with His ANU.
And the Aeons were androgynus, each one in their lot. And they were the creative female forces and attributes of all paragons, and for each had they a husband who was the Great Spirit, also called the Light, also called by his most mighty name of Christ.
And Wisdom was the final of the Aeons and farthest from the Ultimate Source of ALL. Her number was 33, the lowest piece of spine in man, and men later called her Sophia after her divine principles.
It came, still yet before the creation of unholy space and time, when Sophia loved the AN more than even the other Aeons with their infinite, incomparable praise and attraction towardeth Himself. Loved and admired He so much that she wished to mimic Him as the other Aeons had always done, but in far greater amounts.
Saw she the beautiful, divine, righteous, infinite, ineffable, infallible, power He had over manifesting whatsoever He chose, and wished she to be perfectly like Him in His pure, immaculate, perfection that cannst possibly hope to be uttered in any Earthly or Heavenly tongue.
And Sophia had free will like the other Aeons, but with limitation, for the Thoughts of God require a degree of freedom to create by their own will and thoughts themselves.
But it was, that Sophia desired to possess the ultimate freedom–that which resembled the Heart of the AN, and she wished to create as much as He and form the ultimate, most innocent, loving creation possible. To accomplish this, didst she forsake the council of Christ, her husband, who was the permission and limitation of the approval of God, called also EA.
Moreover, it was that Sophia impregnated herself with her own will and magic, becoming, as it were, the first virgin set to bear fruit.
But this was a mistake, and it was like a sin. Without the Spirit of the AN, God Himself, and gift of Light that wast the Word of Barbelo, Benben, and Eye of Christ, her child was powerful, and a form most manifested in the erroneous image she had imagined.
And when the time arose that she gave birth, her belly ached severely and a great unnatural pain encompassed her being. What came from the womb was no entity of perfection, nor of any goodness.
Wast it like a god void of Light: a sinister beast with no concept of holiness or generosity. Powerful was he, awesome, and possessed the power of an Aeon, so his head was like that of a lion. Yet, dark and evil was he, so the magi saith he appeareth like a bloodthirsty dragon at the same time.
Sophia lamented her creation at once; became she inconceivably ashamed and filled with regret. She hated herself for the darkness that came out of her despite good intentions.
Refused she to let him suckle from her, for weret his teeth like fangs which harmeth all.
In err, she thought to hide her beastly, bastard son from the Eye of the AN. And she sent him on a strong boat through the fresh waters above all things into the outskirts of His Mind, the Pleroma where Light shone less. It was a place of dimness, directly before the boundary of chaos and nothingness where the salt water flowed.
There he dwelt and grew in an instant. In the dark dimness he saw no Light like the Aeons knew. Small and weak weret his eyes, afflicted were his ears; the sight of the Aeons was too far to perceive.
Too blurry was the Peaceful Pleroma above him, and he thought no other principles existed other than himself, for saw he only himself amidst seemingly emptiness. In his mind, he and only he alone was, for which reason he pronounced himself the one and only god of all things.
Drunk with power and magic inherited from his mother, gave he virgin birth to six children and commanded that they obey him as their father: their one and only god above all.
These children would later be called high lords, or Archons, for had they dominion over the manifested universe, the lesser heavens and hells, and Earthly creation.
The last of these children was great and would be placed just below the beast named Set in the black sands of Khem, son of Sophia, beautiful Isis. He was named Osiris, after Isis, overseer of the lower heavens and hells. Dwelt he in the fifth sphere. Evil was he then and obeyed the dark words of his father. Revelled he in lust with his sisters and all things sinful arising from passions, desires, physical senses, and materialism. From these unions and Set himself didst arise demons and false angels of the abyss and heavens.
Now, shall it be noted that this needed not occur, even after the unholy conception; for, even he, Set himself and his kin, possessed free will like all things with spirit and soul. They needed not live in the darkness and be bound by their own senses that create limitations.
Yea, could they and shall they always be able to choose the Light and Divine Goodness. But they refused at the behest of Set, their supposed sole god, lead Bull of Heaven, and they fell into worlds below even the lower Superiors, deeper and deeper into the darkness.
And it occurred, that the voice of Sophia herself descended unto the senses of Set. Did she inform him with desperate plea that he was not God and much greater things existed above him, his watery roof, and the lower realms of darkness. But Set could not see her or the Light, and he refused to list to her words. Drunk was he with her stolen power and magic, and he wanted all things for himself; to create with ultimate free will.
And when this took place, further down he and his offspring and demons went, evermore into the worlds of senses and limitations.
Then the AN and Christ with their Divine Eye immediately saw what had taken place, and Sophia repented and begged for their help; God, most merciful of all things, wished to help and forgave unconditionally.
With His Barbelo, his Benben, a new entity would be manifested to save the lower creation and bring all unholy things back to the Great Divine Perfection.
The Father and the AN spoke to each other, and considered they a being similar to them and with nearly equal power and goodness. This being was perfect in all ways and resembled the Holy Spirit, reflection of God. Within himself was the inner Pleroma and perfect Mind with an immaculate heart. They called him Adam, a bearer of Light, Lucifer, and he was placed just below noble Barbelo in the great Court of the ALL.
Was it commanded of Adam to save the lower forces of darkness, bring forth truth unto them, bring heavenly fire below, and return them to the place of perfection.
And Adam was greater than anything of Set’s creation, and far more powerful was he than Set, able to destroy him at the smallest of will.
Wast Adam gifted the invincible golden suit of armor, for which nothing could possibly penetrate; secondly wast he given the fiery sword of Heaven that could penetrate all things without being destroyed.
With these, the celestial Adam could not fail and nothing could hope to strike him down.
But when Adam saw the dark beings below him, desire arose once more and he admired the great free will of themselves: that they could create as they chose unboundlessly.
And wast it, at that moment, that Adam briefly forgot about his mission and he lost his armor and sword and divinity in an instant. In the same way as the fall of the beast and his virgin mother, Adam fell into the darkness of their creation below.
And as he fell into the abyss and lost his wings, so too didst he with all his divine attributes, save one.
But Adam lost not one paragon, spark of the Pleroma, and Word, which was the Divine Aeon of Love within himself. Wast it a weapon capable of saving himself and the principalities of evil. It wast a gift AN refused to remove and could it not be taken away.
And Adam hit the roof of the Archons’ firmament, Nut, and the dark lords heard the echo and thunder above their universe.
An image appeared then which wast the form of Adam, a form most strange, beautiful, powerful, and dissimilar to themselves. Then Set, who was called Satan after the fall, wished to take advantage of the mysterious force and harness it for himself.
At night, around the table of the unrighteous tabernacle, Satan consulted with his children and demons on how to construct the image. When morning came, on a Saturday, each of the Archons passed over the world, and 365 demons weret commanded to fashion a piece of the uncorporeal image out of flesh.
In that hour was the giant, ruddy-cheeked man made and wast he called Adam, but of a lesser nature and far inferior to his first form.
The flesh of the First Man didst lay there composed, and the Archons celebrated, but lifeless and without spirit or soul was he. And the AN knoweth all things and foresaw this. Sent He His Christ unto Sophia to send an important message. The Christ told Sophia to speak into the ear of her son once more and command that he blow his essence into the man, that he may walk and obey the beast.
But in secret, the Aeons knew in the Order Above Everything, that Satan gave away a piece of Divine Spark stolen from his mother and forfeited it into a human man. And in this way, Satan unintentionally lost an amount of power, and each man that wouldst be born thereafter wouldst steal a piece of his great soul unbeknownst to Set, lord of Saturday.
Adam’s eyes opened and he recalled not his nature before the great fall, and knew he not Life, and remembered he not Light. Nay, Adam was like a lost sheep born in a cave and knew not from whence he came.
Then Satan roared from the clouds and spoke to Adam, commanding that he be subservient and obey the one and only true, jealous, god whom he believed to be himself.
For it was that Satan envisioned Adam as a powerful weapon and slave, under his control as one of his demons, and Adam hearkened unto the beast he believed to be his master.
But this was the second life of Adam, for, in the first, Satan grew fearful of Adam when he awoke. The Archons trembled when they heard the mighty, inner faculties and abilities of the man. Knew they, that Adam’s magic could be stronger and destroy them, at which time Satan cried out in jealousy. For this reason, Saturn put Adam to rest once more and brought down his unholy, cold, boney hand of death from his heaven and sphere.
And Satan clenched Adam’s soul and attempted to suffocate it, but the Sparks of Life can die not. Then didst he withdraw the Light and soul out of Adam, but a new, beautiful form unexpectedly sprung forth and it was the first woman who would later be called Eve, daughter of the morning.
And Eve was strong, but blind as Adam. She looked down upon him and saw someone familiar, but she recognized him not. In one instance, she felt love and attraction towards him who was in her likeness and she awoke him from his slumber; Adam found his inner Light before him.
Then did Satan name himself Yahweh, Enki, El with his Archons: the Elohim who helped fashion the man and creation.
The Archons trembled upon discovering that they couldst not destroy their creation, despite their efforts and subversion from the Aeons; so placed they the two in a paradise of their own, filled with lusts, and passions, and all Earthly desires that satisfied the senses but distracted them from divinity.
And Satan gave unto them all lusts and wishes their Earthly egos and hearts desired. And Satan allowed them eternal lifespans and hoped they would not question his authority or their place in creation. Commanded he that they not use knowledge which inevitably morphs into wisdom.
But Adam wandered amidst the garden and came he upon an apple tree, but a tree it was not. And Adam suddenly gained a thought about knowledge and what that concept meant when a beautiful serpent appeared before him. He questioned what goodness meant and if it and it alone was.
And the serpent was Chirst in disguise who descended to help save mankind. Hid he in the form of a dark, Earthly creeping thing so the evil principalities would not recognize his nature.
And Christ revealed unto Adam the concept of knowledge and wisdom, from which eternal happiness awaited them. But Adam questioned, and the Serpent revealed that Yahweh was not god or merciful or loving or kind or graceful or divine, but evil and wicked in all ways. The immortality Adam seemingly had was not Life at all, but an eternal prison which he couldst never hope to escape without knowledge, called also Gnosis.
Then Adam felt naked in his consciousness, for knew he then that what lay around him was a deceitful lie and they had been made to be slaves. He was exposed to the darkness about his being and felt small. In fear, Adam and Eve hid in the bushes when they defiled Yahweh and refused to obey.
Then Yahweh saw the serpent and knew not its mystery nor identity, but cursed it anyway and declared its form evil from there onwards. Cursed he then Adam and his Light, his Eve; threw he them into the deserts of the world where they would suffer eternally, lose their immortality, and forever be servants. Then he used deceit once more and promised eternal life and happiness should they worship him again.
And Yahweh made a second measure, that when a man should die, he be brought up to the Archons, given unholy, forgetful wine to drink, and be cast again onto the world, forgetting any lessons or knowledge of the past he may hath acquired, so the Sparks escaped not the creation beneath Nut; all seemed doomed and lost.
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